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FINALS

2011-05-10T02:23:00.000-07:00

Finals. Finals. The last breath of a dying semester.Aha, I kid. More like the last scream...Hahaha anyway, my memory is so bad it's hilarious. Just a few moments ago I remembered something super trivial about last summer and how I had prepared my ochem notes from high school in preparation for 3A.. If I went to all of the lectures, studied.. what happened? The last half of that summer is a

Emotionally Unstable

2011-04-22T03:14:00.001-07:00

I'm so unstable it's not even funny anymore. Well actually, someone once told me that "you know it's bad once you can joke about it." I guess that's only for special incidents, like joking about a suicide.If anything at all pricks or pokes me, I think I'm going to have a serious meltdown. Since when did I get atop this precarious perch? More like I'm walking a tightrope above a sea of

Big Bang - Stupid Liar

2011-04-20T00:39:00.000-07:00

Too much to study. Kill me now."I'm so stupid.." for real!! D:

Fade

2011-04-08T20:26:00.000-07:00

I feel like the last tendrils of life are losing their hold on me, and I'm fading out into a void.Well that was bleak. I suck at being eloquent.. Anyway, I was trying to describe the feeling of disconnect that I'm experiencing right now. I have so much to do, and so much that I want to do, yet I haven't been able to address any of these issues yet. I guess I'm too afraid. I keep thinking of

Get It Right

2011-03-29T20:55:00.000-07:00

This pretty much sums up my life right now. "Get It Right" from Glee.Wednesday8 am - bio lecture9 am - stats hw & section1 pm - chem lab and prelab5 pm - lab lecture!!Thursday8 am - chem lecture9:30 am - stats midterm1 pm - lab trainingFriday8 am - bio lecture12 pm - meet up and go to Piedmont MS6 pm - bio midterm8 pm - Dance MarathonSaturday9 am - labor coach trainingNote: Email makeup lab GSI

Sigh

2011-03-27T15:13:00.000-07:00

I'm sooo out of it. Am I depressed?bio prelab?background checklook up my teaching schedulestats hwchem prelabchem lab write upstats midtermbio midtermchem midtermlabor coach trainingsummer subletwork study!!I found this interesting website called No Shmeat. It's about eating in a more healthful and environmentally conscious way. Totally cool! Takeaway points: eat .5 to 1 lb of meat a week;

What now?

2011-03-14T15:49:00.000-07:00

These words try to escape me but I pull them back in.What should I do now? Do I stay in this situation, hoping for the best? Hoping that I'll forget the past? That I'll live and let bygones be bygones?Do I try to rebuild myself from scratch?

Productivity!

2011-03-11T16:31:00.001-08:00

I haven't been very productive lately, but that's going to change!I originally wanted to go to Judo consistently since I've always wanted to get involved in some form of martial arts. But.. now I just feel really embarrassed because I'm such a noob.. It's pretty embarrassing how much I stand out. But I'll try to keep going. Hmmm... (Oh no, the class is starting right now!!! Well, at 5..)I

Optimism

2011-03-04T16:59:00.001-08:00

Where are my little notepads? Agh, gotta write my homework on here then..bio lab on evolution (quiz!)bio webcastsfruitful minds decal assignmentchem lab worksheetchem prelabchem lab writeupwork study!It's major madness week next week! (Okay, I realize that most people don't even pay attention to this stuff, but..) I wanted to do something with my life, since I haven't been doing much lately,

Poise and Rationality

2011-02-28T09:36:00.001-08:00

So I thought I would be safe in my own room, but apparently not. Well, how could I be? My new roommate has lots of issues of her own, as evidenced by her many late night yelling matches. (Was that rude? She just talks loudly.) I can never understand why some people are so abrasive. We basically got into a stupid argument yesterday morning over the window. Although the initial argument was

Ganbatte!

2011-02-24T16:06:00.000-08:00

I have a midterm coming up soon, and the last thing I need is to contemplate the complexities of life! I can't help but daydream lately. I just need to pull through Monday and I'll be home free!I'm super stressed with work, but I've finished some things at least!FAFSAbio 1b midtermcleaning room (though this is still a daily commitment so I'll never really be done)Stuff left to do:scan & email

Reminiscent

2011-02-21T03:07:00.000-08:00

Are things coming to an end now? Honestly, I guess I just want an outlet for what I've been feeling. I've been treating my friends horribly. I've been a hermit. I've missed class. I'm behind in my coursework. I stopped looking for a job. I stopped thinking ahead, for myself. My life would be so different now had I made different choices in the past. There's no (reasonable) way I could be

Day 09 — A photo of you taken recently

2011-02-03T09:58:00.001-08:00

Not the greatest photo, but this was taken 2 weeks ago so this is pretty recent. This was taken at Fort Mason in SF in the "Great Meadow" portion of the park. I actually didn't think it would be very amazing, but there were so many people playing with their dogs!! Very exciting. :]I'm still wondering where things are headed. Why is everything so confusing to me? Frustration, go away!As one

Piece of my..

2011-02-03T00:55:00.000-08:00

Sometimes inspiration hits you like a ton of bricks. And then ideas explode out of your head in a bloody yet artistic mess. Gross.. haha.How do you have a successful relationship, romantic or otherwise? There must be a balance between the give and take. Shall I throw in the towel now?I feel so broken right now. I want to be independent, but I'm not strong enough to go through with it. I

Day 08 – A Photo You Took

2011-02-01T10:57:00.000-08:00

Ghirardelli Square at night! This was from 2 weeks ago. I've actually only been here maybe 2 times?

YES

2011-02-01T10:14:00.000-08:00

Things to be done:ochem worksheet + prelab + reviewbio webcastswork studydinner with family tonight!!stats homeworklaundry..I'm going to channel my energy into more productive pathways. I CAN DO THIS!

This feeling..

2011-01-31T13:03:00.000-08:00

Am I depressed?2 weeks ago I felt this dreadful, calm, patient beast within me wake from its slumber. Now it's baring it's teeth, ready to break the chains which once kept it docile. I'm losing my tenuous grip on reality.I'm afraid, but I must face this alone.

Weird

2011-01-30T23:07:00.001-08:00

Hm, it seems like I only post things when I'm sad. Haha, it is a more contemplative mood though.I entered the school year hoping for the best, hoping for lots of activities, hoping for a change. At this point, I don't see too much that is different: I'm still jobless, still without a huge time commitment, still without too much of a social life. (Quite a shame, I know.)

So blue

2011-01-19T10:45:00.000-08:00

School just started, yet I can't help but feel down. I want to get out there and do things! I applied to some jobs, so hopefully I will be employed this semester. I wanted to get involved in either dance or martial arts, but I haven't signed up for anything yet. I'm taking the minimum amount of units, so I want to really do something this semester.I can't move. I'm like a non-modal fungi. (

Apologize

2010-12-27T18:40:00.000-08:00

If you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve me at my best.I used to think that that quote (by Marilyn Monroe, I believe) was one of the most arrogant lines of snobbery anyone could let slip from their lips, and yet I found myself agreeing with it lately. Well, of course not unconditionally. People should always work to improve themselves. I guess it's like.. you shouldn't expect

Canine Diabetes

2010-12-22T18:25:00.001-08:00

Who would've thought that my dog would develop diabetes? I don't know what I should do.. Our neighbor took him to the vet and he got some medication. I'm not sure of the details because my parents can't really explain it to me using the correct terminology. Is there a shot that he should get? Does he have diabetes mellitus (insulin deficiency) or insipidus (ADH/vasopressin deficiency)?

Holidays

2010-12-20T11:46:00.000-08:00

Is it a common thing for friends to hang out for the holidays, or do you more commonly spend that time with your family? I'm always with family during the holidays, but we haven't done anything exciting since I was maybe 10 or something.Things I want to do sometime:snowboardlearn to fly a planefinish writing lettersdo something exciting for the holidays!!play piano (modern songs)Oh no, I'm going

Something missing..

2010-12-19T23:56:00.000-08:00

[M/V] BIGBANG - 声をきかせて [HD]Winter break has finally begun, and now I can relax! For some reason I always get this feeling of emptiness when I'm at home. No, it's not because I don't love my family! It's because I usually end up staying cooped up indoors. I felt smothered at Cal, and now I feel aimless at home.Anyway, I plan on playing a new mmorpg called Vindictus to pass the time. I'll edit

The Last Stretch

2010-12-14T21:22:00.000-08:00

Last final to go!I noticed that I've never played and sung a song at the same time; maybe I'll try this winter break! I should do more things that I want to do anyway.Note to self: learn to play "Grenade" by Bruno Mars on the piano.

Life is a roller coaster

2010-12-11T02:48:00.000-08:00

5 things that I hate/really dislike:arrogant/callous/selfish/disrespectful individualslack of peace from annoying smells or intruding sounds, etc. (this includes too much socializing)falseness; kissing up; nosy-nessexcess; extravagant waste; leads to pollutiondamaging things; throwing things away; tied to #4 OR hershey's milk chocolateI feel like I've really changed this semester, and not just in

Hectic!

2010-11-28T05:27:00.001-08:00

Monday10am physics lab (read ws beforehand)1pm letter due2pm quiz in bio discussion4pm meet guitar groupTuesday1pm class2pm project4pm guitar performanceWednesday10am physics discmastering physics?Thursday1pm lesson 5-7 written exam4pm guitar performanceFriday9am lab practical12pm class1pm project11pm mastering physics

Day 07 — 10 Years Ago..

2010-11-21T13:23:00.001-08:00

"Sometimes we put up walls, not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to knock them down."So I don't really have old photos on this computer, so I'll just get one later? In the meantime, please enjoy this picture of my dog! :D He's a Boxer, probably about 9-10 years old now. He's never had a girlfriend. :[ Sure, laugh now, but back in his prime my parents (more like my dad) always

Day 06 — An Invention from a Novel

2010-11-20T14:59:00.000-08:00

Maybe it's the HP hype right now, but I'd love to have a timeturner.

A Dream

2010-11-20T14:48:00.000-08:00

I woke up half an hour ago. Very late. But I had some pretty epic dreams. It's already starting to fade, so let me try to remember. It's really interesting because I mixed my dreams with reality, so I didn't realize these were dreams, just memories of the past. Anyway.. First, I came up with a good song to perform (guitar + lyrics) but I forgot it now.. Second, I saw my eldest brother,

Day 05 - Favorite Superhero

2010-11-14T20:25:00.000-08:00

Um. So did I mention how I don't have favorites? Why are all of these questions asking for favorites?!? I really have no idea. Whenever I think of "superhero" I think of the typical American cartoons like Batman, Superman, Wonderwoman, AdjectiveHominid..I guess my favorite would have to be a superhero in a different sense of the word, kind of like CNN's segment on everyday heroes. People who

Vitamin D and Strokes

2010-11-14T20:19:00.000-08:00

So apparently a lack of vitamin D in white people is linked to increased risk of death due to stroke when compared to blacks, who are not affected in this way. What I find interesting is how these news articles always seem to compare whites, blacks, and maybe latinos, but there is hardly ever a mention of us yellow people or native americans, or any other minority. And yet in a recent article

Day 04

2010-11-09T04:39:00.001-08:00

Ah, I'm not even in sync anymore. Oh well, the challenge continues! My favorite quote? I actually rarely have favorites, so whenever I have to answer a question like this I'm almost always stumped. I guess I could go with the interesting fortune that I got a while back that I slipped into my wallet: "Tomorrow will be a productive day. Don't oversleep." I got it when I went out to dinner

Day 02/03

2010-11-06T22:50:00.000-07:00

Since I'm late, I'm going to combine days 2 and 3: a song that makes me happy, and a song that makes me think.My collection of songs is really eclectic, since it just accumulates from friends showing me stuff. I rarely have full albums of any one artist, except for Nicholas Teo (and Jason Mraz, Imogen Heap, Sara Bareilles). I really like his music, even though it gives me a 90's feel. I tend

Day 01

2010-11-05T02:04:00.000-07:00

So I'm finally going to get started on completing this 30 Day Challenge thing that I said I'd do sometime in August. This first one is going to be about a book that I've read more than once. Honestly, I'm not sure how many books I've actually read more than once. Usually I just read a book once and leave it on my shelf (or scattered somewhere on the floor). I've read Journey to the Center of

an indescribable feeling..

2010-11-03T22:11:00.001-07:00

What's up with me? I feel a bit lost. Things are just spiraling out of control. I can't grasp onto anything to stop myself from tumbling away. My emotions have ensnared me..Someone said I was "emo" recently. I don't think I am. Am I? Why aren't things simple anymore. I guess I set the dominoes into motion; who knows where this thing will go. But back to my main point.. being called "emo"

One Month

2010-10-15T06:08:00.000-07:00

It has been a month since my last post! Wow, I really should be on top of things. Well, blogging isn't that big of a deal anyway, since I should be WORKING ON MY ACADEMICS. Indeed. It's 6 am and I'm up working on bio stuff. I just found out that only my quiz scores count for my bio lab class. Lab/prelabs only help if I'm borderline, as in my GSI can decide whether or not she wants to bump

Confusion

2010-09-14T18:40:00.001-07:00

I feel lost. Detached. I feel like I'm a new person, someone who isn't tied down anymore. It's rather frightening.I keep losing track of what I need to do. Lately, I just go with the flow rather than plan things out. I don't know when my tests are. I don't know when my homework is due. What IS my homework? I haven't applied for any work study jobs. I haven't studied. I haven't cleaned

Liminality

2010-08-21T02:27:00.000-07:00

I've been writing a lot of posts, but I have yet to actually publish one. Maybe this will be the one.I should be packing now. If you know anything about me, you should know that I'm horrible at getting things done quickly. I would attribute it to my perfectionist attitude, but maybe it's just because I'm lazy. I can't figure out what I actually need, and I don't want to forget to pack

Now what?

2010-08-17T19:52:00.001-07:00

I just need to let it out. Need to focus on something. I'm a jumble of emotions, so I'm just going to type and keep typing and see what comes out. I see the piano in front of me, and I should play something. Then I can focus on getting better. But even the piano reminds me. Why have I been listening to so many sad songs? It's not very good. It also doesn't help that I'm moody right now."I

30 Day Challenge

2010-08-12T04:59:00.001-07:00

Day 01 — A book you’ve read more than onceDay 02 — A song that makes you happyDay 03 — A song that makes you thinkDay 04 — Your favourite quoteDay 05 — Your favourite superheroDay 06 — A favourite invention from a fantasy novelDay 07 — A photo of you taken over ten years agoDay 08 — A photo you tookDay 09 — A photo of you taken recentlyDay 10 — A hobby you’ve always wished to take upDay 11 — Your

Stuff

2010-08-08T23:09:00.000-07:00

A lot has happened in the past couple of days. The big thing is that I'm so sore that I can barely move because I've been at the gym for 6 hours over the past 2 days. (Badminton is fun!) I'll just have to waddle around.. D:Chem N3AL: Tuesday 8-9 pm @ 1 PimentelChem 3A: Thursday 8:45-10:45 am @ ??English N117S: Friday 12-2 pm in classOH MY GOODNESS. Time to study. asdfjkl;

Events Coming Up

2010-08-04T11:24:00.000-07:00

I should be studying, I really should. I have my ochem lab practical next Tuesday, ochem final next Thursday, and English final next Friday. And what do I need to do for each? Hm, I actually haven't thought much about it all.. Time for another list! (Yes, I need lists to keep my mind organized, otherwise everything gets all mixed up.)Chem N3AL - review NMR, review the 3 in-class worksheets,

Regrets

2010-08-04T02:03:00.001-07:00

I'm reminiscing about the past again. I'm a dweller. I just stick to what was and not what is or will be. I've lost friends and gained friends, but I continue to feel a deep sense of regret for events that I cannot change.Why am I thinking of these things so suddenly? Well, I started to use a new iTunes-esque program (JetAudio Basic I think) to listen to music, and one of the files was a

Back to Myspace -_-

2010-08-03T15:13:00.000-07:00

So I suddenly decided to cure my boredom by taking this silly questionnaire thing.1. smoked.2. consumed alcohol.3. lied in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.4. lied in the same bed with someone of the same sex.5. kissed someone of the same sex.6. had sex.7. had someone in your room other than family.8. watched porn.9. bought porn.10. tried drugs.TOTAL: 61. taken painkillers.2. taken

List of Stuff to Bring :o

2010-08-02T11:17:00.000-07:00

I have ~50 minutes before class starts, and here I am on this blog. Well, I wanted to write down a few things before I forget (like I always do).umbrellarain bootscoatmugsmaller backpack or messenger bag..?I didn't eat yet! Ahh!So last night I slept pretty late because I went to John/Eric/Gabe's apartment for a potluck. We were all supposed to arrive at 6 pm, but miraculously I was the first

Telebears

2010-07-28T22:12:00.001-07:00

So I just realized that I have my class registration tomorrow, and I haven't entirely decided on what to take! I need to have some backup courses just in case things don't work out the way I want. I keep forgetting all the resources that I have, so I'm just going to put them all up in one place.DARSweb - check how many requirements are left to be fulfilled; can run the degree audit for

Books and Movies

2010-07-28T16:31:00.001-07:00

Awesome (!) movies already seen (I tried to list them in order of preference but it was too tough so I gave up ><):InceptionToy Story 3Sherlock HolmesUpDespicable MeMementoShutter IslandKarate KidA.I. Artificial IntelligenceChildren of HeavenFearlessRun Lola RunSay AnythingLife Is BeautifulSpirited AwayHowl's Moving CastleGrave of the FirefliesFinding NemoMy Neighbor TotoroLa Misma

Food Adventures

2010-07-24T16:30:00.001-07:00

When I first arrived in my new apartment, I actually dreaded it a bit. I couldn't imagine cooking a meal for myself, doing laundry (again), and being my own boss. It's too much to think about; just let me laze around for a bit more! But now that I've had more and more opportunities to cook, I'm starting to enjoy it more! (And by opportunities I mean moments when I either cooked or starved..)

Scary Lady

2010-07-19T00:49:00.000-07:00

Today I gave $1 to a strange, intimidating woman. Thinking back on it, I feel that the people who lurk and don't mind other people's business are those who are most deserving of help. Yet at the same time, she took the initiative.. Well, she was pretty rude. "Please show me that you aren't like the other Asians that I know. Can you spare some money to buy jewelry off of me so that I can get

"Twins"

2010-07-17T03:06:00.000-07:00

What would you do if you met someone exactly like you? Well, not like some freakish alien twin, but I mean someone who had similar mannerisms, likes/dislikes, personality, style, etc.. Would you notice? Would it freak you out? Or would you just recognize the chemistry?At one point in time I thought I had met someone who was my "foil" because we both are the same major and have similar

One Down, Three to Go

2010-07-13T21:47:00.001-07:00

Should I get a tumblr? It looks nicer, and there's the option of making individual posts private and whatnot. Idk, it just looks so aesthetically pleasing haha.In other news, well, this is going to be a really random and rushed post. Wooo!And a couple of things you guys should check out:Here's a site where you enter an excerpt of your writing (about a paragraph) for it to analyze, and it'll

Frozen Hot Chocolate

2010-07-11T14:30:00.000-07:00

I'm sooo stressed out with everything going on. And I also need to do my most hated chore.. laundry. -_-So I'm trying to delay the inevitable for as long as possible (even going so far as to not eat lunch.. ehe..) when I came upon THIS RECIPE. SO AWESOME!!6 pieces (1/2-ounce) chocolate , a variety of your favorites2 teaspoons store-bought hot chocolate mix (Swiss Miss is my favorite)1 1/2

Anxious

2010-06-28T16:36:00.000-07:00

Why am I such a worry-wart? I always worry.. For example, I'm really nervous for my first actual wet lab tonight. I'm anxious not just because this class is known to be tough, but because I need to work with a partner.. and I don't know who I'll be working with..I'm such an introvert! I overthink things and overcalculate. I need to be more confident. Gahhh..

I'm not your typical girl.

2010-06-26T13:32:00.001-07:00

Not just me, but most of my friends just don't seem to fit the mold that we see so often in the media and just on the streets of suburbia. I was reading a blog about nail polish and whether or not dark colors would be okay to use during the summer months. A lot of people gave their input, and I realized that.. I must be a freak for not using nail polish!!Okay, I did get my first (and only)

Week 1

2010-06-24T23:19:00.001-07:00

My first week of summer school has come to an end! (Yay, no classes on Friday!) I haven't done much today except watch my new TW drama called P.S. Man. Sometimes I wish I weren't so shy. Actually, I always don't want to be my introverted self. I've been locked up in my room (voluntarily) watching videos, surfing internet, etc. I should go out and meet people! Well, going out with Jenny on

Don't Forget..

2010-06-17T02:56:00.000-07:00

So I haven't posted in a while. Actually, I haven't been keeping records of my life at all since I've come back home - I didn't unpack my diary! (I'm such a sloth.. seriously..) But anyway, I have loads of stuff that I suddenly need to do now since I'm starting summer school next week! So here's my list:Accept finaid for summer school. CARS BILL..Figure out if I still have work study for the

Socal

2010-05-17T13:18:00.000-07:00

I'm back home now.. I should be more excited, but I've been so bored lately. What should I do to ease my boredom? Hm. I feel guilty too. Ah, I'm just feeling all sorts of emotions. I kind of feel like crawling into my own little world by playing video games 24/7. Why is that? I kind of left Cal on a bad note because I had an argument with some people.. I was in a bad mood and stuff just

I should be writing my essay..

2010-04-30T10:14:00.000-07:00

I wrote this with my eyes closed!I just had a dream (I shouldn’t have napped) towards the end I was talking o a 2-3 person rock band that I liked. I explained my music tatstes, and she started playing songs in the background (TV projector in the top corner of the room). I liked the first song, but the next was violint screaming and the third was gruesome. People were scalped.. I mean their

Random

2010-04-07T23:14:00.000-07:00

Picture.Check it out. :o

Acanthamoeba Keratitis

2010-03-26T21:20:00.000-07:00

Apparently there's a (common?) parasite that can cause extreme pain and even blindness (especially for contact wearers). Check out the link at the bottom for more info.Basically, KEEP YOUR CONTACTS AWAY FROM TAP WATER!Source: http://human-infections.suite101.com/article.cfm/acanthamoeba_eye_parasite

Earthquakes

2010-03-20T23:14:00.001-07:00

As I was checking up on the news via CNN, I noticed that apparently a 5.6 magnitude earthquake hit Cuba. What's with the surge of earthquakes lately?!1/03 - 6.6 & 7.1 in Solomon Islands1/05 - 6.8 in Solomon Islands1/12 - 7.0 in Haiti2/26 - 7.0 in Japan (Ryukyu Islands near Taiwan)2/27 - 8.8 in Chile3/16 - 4.4 in LA countySource hereAfter browsing that site (the source above), I guess earthquakes

Exercise

2010-03-13T14:00:00.000-08:00

I've started a workout regimen. Finally! I don't really like working out, but I found some convenient exercises to do: heel lifts, crunches, pushups, squats. I haven't started on doing the last ones, though.Today: 125 heel lifts, 25 crunchesYesterday: 125 heel lifts, 25 crunches, 10 pushupsDay Before: 100 heel lifts, 25 pushupsWooo! I think I may even go down to the gym.. I guess the

Laundry

2010-03-06T03:54:00.000-08:00

It's late, and I'm still up, but not of my own will. Why am I up so late?I guess you could say it's my procrastination at fault once again.Basically, I didn't do laundry for 2-3 weeks or something. I usually do 2 separate washes (light and dark) and then combine them in 1 dryer. (Is that bad for the colors, or is it fine?) Since I waited so long this time, I had 2 full loads in the wash (

Lists

2010-03-02T23:58:00.000-08:00

Another list of things to do:find stuff to do for the summer/figure out summer plans/internships?!talk to a peer advisor or somethingtake a shower >>classics hw: read Trojan Women + textbook + email TFDchem: lab + rewrite formal lab (no prelab this week!)math: do hw + study for quizMidterms/projects coming up:Mon 3/8 - chem #2Thurs 3/11 - TaiwaneseMon 3/15 - classicsWed 3/17 - mathmath quiz

Sick Again?

2010-02-27T23:11:00.000-08:00

So I've been sick for the past few days, and it doesn't seem to be letting up. I'm getting chills again, so I decided to purchase some Tylenol (SEVERE Cold, haha) when I went out on a Walgreens run. I actually haven't been doing anything productive for quite a while, but I do have a lot of stuff to write about.A couple of floormates and I had an all-nighter Thursday night/Friday morning. Our

Gracepoint

2010-02-21T16:36:00.000-08:00

I'm unsure. It's all so uncertain. Something assumed to last actually may not. We're of different lives.I went to service for the first time in a long time this morning. Having heard that 10:00-11:30 was prayer meeting stuff (pre-service), I arrived in time for 11:30-1:00 service. When I got there, I saw a sign that said "Prayer + Worship Service." I then wondered if the entire service

Things to Do

2010-02-17T16:55:00.000-08:00

Thursdaywake up early!!turn in TFDfinish reading Agamemnon + Iphigenia at Aulis + CM7turn in prelab + formal lab report (find printing)FridayVagina MonologuesSaturdayapartment hunting

Chinese New Year

2010-02-13T23:09:00.000-08:00

I just came back from a special dinner at the senior Koinonia girls' apartment. To be honest, I didn't feel like doing anything tonight, and when Jane text-invited me to come over, I wasn't sure how to decline. I just felt so tired and I wanted to sleep the day away. However, I had nothing better to do, and two of my other friends also decided to go, so why not.I'm so glad I went! It was

Worries Removed

2010-01-30T16:12:00.000-08:00

I guess you could say that I'm pretty relieved now. It's so amazing that the first month of 2010 is now coming to a close. (Btw, I love writing down "2010" for some reason.. it just writes so smoothly!)Anyway, why have some of my stresses decreased? Well, I am no longer a part-time student! Hurrah for 16 units of educational bliss! I also have a job, though I haven't started working yet.

Lonely

2010-01-18T01:25:00.000-08:00

I'm back in the dorm now, and going to spend my first night at Berkeley alone. I guess it wouldn't be so bad if I weren't in such a bad mood. I'm so overwhelmed...First of all, I'm not a full-time student. I guess this wouldn't be an extreme worry for most people, but my financial aid will not pay if I am only part-time. So far I have 11 units, so I need an extra 2. I'm waitlisted for chem

STRESSDOM

2010-01-17T00:43:00.000-08:00

To-Do Listfinish cover letter for miceemail job applicationmaybe look for another jobpacktextbook stuffchem 1a stuff (which lab do i go to; still waitlisted #7; pb hlth 116 = #101)internshiplook through old books to find plays (or notes...)Bringipod earphonesext HD + cablecell phone + charger + cable + earphonestoiletries bag (toothbrush, face wash, lotion, comb, retainer, floss)diarypencil

A Personality Quiz

2010-01-16T01:23:00.000-08:00

This is the first quiz that I've taken in a while. Actually, I'm procrastinating on making my resume and cover letters for work study positions.. GRR.Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.The type of

Late Nights

2010-01-15T04:02:00.001-08:00

Why do I keep sleeping so late? I was going to sleep early and wake early, especially after waking up at 2:30-ish this afternoon. D:I'm utterly lazy. I'm a couch potato. How can I.. GRR. I need to get moving, get working...I'll go sleep now.. Wow I'm speechless in the face of my lack of activity.

Psych in Practical Application

2010-01-14T00:32:00.000-08:00

I read something somewhere that resonated with what I learned in my psych class last semester, so I'm going to attempt to apply it now. What was it exactly? When attempting to cure someone of an irrational fear, a behavioral therapist may choose to repeatedly expose the individual to the object of fear in an attempt to eradicate the stimulus-response pathway. (Am I saying this right? Winter

Textbooks D:

2010-01-12T13:46:00.000-08:00

Textbooks are so expensive. Let's see...Classics 28Required Materials:Hesiod: Theogony - $10/- (in stock)Sophocles: Three Theban Plays - $9/$12 (avail. to order)Aeschylus: Oresteia - $9/12 (avail. to order)Lattimore: Odyssey of Homer (Perennial Mod Classic; with PS Insights) - $10.50/$13.99 (avail. to order)Graves: Greek Myths (Complete) - $15/$19.95 (in stock/avail. to order)Euripides:

Fashion

2010-01-11T20:48:00.000-08:00

AdelaTurtleneck Knit Tunic DressDodostyleBoatneck Sweater + Tee ShirtDetachable CowlFingerless MittensFleece Trim Hooded PulloverKnit Dress + ScarfLong-Sleeve V-Neck Striped TopShy ShyDistressed Lace Hem Denim ShortsGiraffe Print Hooded PulloverStylewardrobeThumbhole Sleeve Hooded Knit Cardigan

Food

2010-01-02T01:48:00.001-08:00

I've been craving different foods for quite a while now. Even though I should be sleeping now, I've been looking up different foods since.. quite some time ago.Denny's hot chocolate (with endless refills!) was delicious. I should make some of my own with my Ghirardelli mix with hazelnut.. o_oHAZELNUTS. They're amazing. The star of Ferrero Rocher chocolates and Nutella. Yum.Which reminds me,

Random

2009-12-27T23:56:00.000-08:00

New ConceptA man in a steady relationship decides to surprise the girl by booking a reservation at a lovely hotel for two. Of course, it takes months (since he isn't outstandingly wealthy), and by that time the relationship is nonexistent. He needs to find another person to go w/ since it's too late to cancel and... ROMANCE BLOSSOMS. :OThis guy is soo nice/cute/awesome~ Hahha. Jung Yong Hwa

Molten Salt Reactors

2009-12-26T01:14:00.001-08:00

So apparently there's an energy source that is much more efficient and better for the environment than your typical Uranium-235 based nuclear reactors, but it hasn't taken off due to the adverse effects of capitalism. Shame.http://www.reddit.com/r/politics/comments/aijbb/give_the_world_the_best_christmas_present_of_all/

Back Home

2009-12-18T20:04:00.000-08:00

I got back home last night at midnight and slept a bit after 3 am. Yes. And then I woke up at 8 this morning to meet up with people at Troy! :o It was so much fun that I got a headache. x_xI added some things onto my list of things to do someday during the drive down from Norcal:I want to go stargazing. I saw some legit stars last night, especially since we were driving through the middle

Psych Final

2009-12-15T01:01:00.000-08:00

Once I'm done with my finals, I'm going to take the Colorgenics Test. Even though I have 2 more finals, tonight will be my last heavy-duty studying night of the year (since I've kept up with math; psych is another story).I'm so lost, I don't know where to start. I guess I'll just read and attempt to absorb the information. I'll sleep maybe 2 hours tonight? Or more? Or less? Who knows... ._

Sigh

2009-12-11T21:04:00.001-08:00

Why do I feel this indignation for "misdeeds" done against others, when the victims (as I see it) have no ill feelings? I think I'm too sensitive.Why do I feel so proud of my accomplishments, and then proceed to tell others? I dislike braggarts. I hope I'm not one of them... On a related note, why do I tell people about random things that amuse me, yet become disappointed when the same effect

Jaded

2009-11-26T22:23:00.000-08:00

What have I become but a jaded individual? When I continue to experience the loss of different things, it all takes a toll, chipping away at my worn heart. By now, I've already experienced countless nights of simply crying myself to sleep. But each time it happens, I become just a bit more distrustful, just a bit more guarded, just a bit more jaded.I fear the day if/when I lose the ability to

Music Jam Session

2009-11-22T22:04:00.001-08:00

Higurashi No Naku Koroni has a cool opening song.I want to read Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand.I NEED TO WRITE MY TERM PAPER!Music Jam SessionBlood+, Higurashi No Naku Koroni, ROD (TV) opening, Cardcaptor Sakura opening, Samurai Champloo, D.Grayman 4th opening, "Ready Steady Go" - L'arc~en~ciel, "Kasenai Tsumi" from FMA, "Rewrite" Asian Kung-Fu Generation, Home Made Kazoku "Arigatou", "Peace" from

Alone

2009-11-21T17:28:00.000-08:00

Why can't I work? Today was a lazy day. I woke up late.. really late. I don't think I got out of bed until 2 something. But I was also sick..This post isn't making much sense.Why are my extremities always freezing? When I get really cold, I like to hold onto my lamp after it has been on for a while; it's so warm. Speaking of coldness, I noticed that my right hand is almost always

Inexplicable

2009-11-15T17:28:00.001-08:00

Why do I always feel so irritated whenever my mom calls me? She calls me all of the time daily, but only for maybe 30 seconds to 2 minutes. I suppose we don't really talk that much, but that's because I always get so irritated that I rush to hang up. Why is that? Well, we do vidchat (via Skype) for longer periods of time if she has her way (30 min to hours).I suppose I just feel entirely

2012

2009-11-15T11:14:00.001-08:00

I really want to see this movie, but it got me thinking: what's really going to happen on 12/21/2012? What would you do differently if you knew the world would end?I remember how I freaked out on New Year's Eve when 1999 became 2000. My parents were asleep, yet I had to stay up as I awaited the apocalypse. Obviously, it never came.Anyway, here's something someone posted about evidence for

Dorm Sweet Dorm

2009-11-13T00:05:00.001-08:00

After a long and arduous bus ride out in the dark wilderness of urbanity, I am home! (Funny how I catch myself calling the dorms "home" now.)

A Mental Note

2009-11-11T17:51:00.000-08:00

I keep losing track of my thoughts. I can't remember names, topics, things that happened only 5 minutes ago. I think I may be on track to get Alzheimer's. Even if I keep journals and blogs, the disease would progress to a point in which I wouldn't even recognize the life described and written in my penmanship as my own. That's so sad. That reminds me of The Notebook actually.. But speaking

Nightmares

2009-11-04T08:52:00.001-08:00

I can remember more nightmares than happy dreams. Last night was just one more notch on the proverbial bedpost of Nightmare-Land.A coworker called me with his cell phone as he was driving along the Golden Gate Bridge (and instead of seeing my own surroundings, I could only see him and what was happening to him). Someone was in the backseat, as well as 1 or 2 ladies in the back. He told me that

A Lost Friendship

2009-10-31T17:42:00.000-07:00

It's always sad to lose a friend. At what point do you stop trying to repair it and just let it go adrift? Perhaps you'll meet again, but 'til then, it's over.I wish it weren't so, but what can I do? When push comes to shove, the "friend" won't give.

Fear of Commitment (Part 3)

2009-10-29T20:30:00.001-07:00

So why is there this fear of commitment? Like I mentioned in part 1, the connection between two human beings (whether romantic or not) has become a caricature of what it once was in the past. When was the last time that you could go over to your neighbor's place and ask to borrow a cup of sugar? What about neighborhood block parties? (I've never been to one, but I've heard of the elusive

Fear of Commitment (Part 2)

2009-10-12T17:44:00.000-07:00

This doesn't really related to the first part of the series... I just feel like blogging now, so just bear with me here.I feel like sometimes I have a fear of commitment. Am I jaded? It's like when you don't want to face the verdict, and you just lower your expectations so that the failure doesn't seem as harsh. Similarly, I really don't want to face more of the unfortunate aspects of being

Deep Questions

2009-10-02T10:00:00.000-07:00

I have neglected my blog again, unfortunately. Forgive me!Lately I have been exploring Christianity through an informal discussion course, and it has been interesting. I'll admit, I haven't been diligent in completing the assigned works (like reading everything), but the discussions we had didn't seem to truly depend on my understanding of some unrelated text written by a man/woman spouting

A Rant

2009-09-26T16:37:00.001-07:00

Why do people do stupid things? Maybe I'm just too uptight, but it really bugs me when people do self-harming things that provide no good results. They don't have a good reason to chug energy drinks, smoke weed, smoke cigarettes, drink alcohol, ditch school... What's the point? I guess people might say that it's to have fun, or to just relax and experiment while they can.Ugh. I had more to

Awkward Moments

2009-09-22T02:30:00.000-07:00

How many times have you been a victim of the awkward silence that hijacks our daily conversations? How many times have you wanted to say something to someone, and upon saying it, realized that it was better left unsaid? How many times have you said something that you thought was awesome, only to be left to face your peers giving you that look?I seem to just attract awkward moments. I love to

Masks

2009-09-20T23:08:00.000-07:00

Each of us has masks that we wear in our daily lives. Someone may behave in a certain way, depending on the situation, in an attempt to garner attention and a sense of belonging.I didn't think that I wore masks, but I suppose that I do. Everyone does. Am I right now?

Fear of Commitment

2009-09-19T17:47:00.000-07:00

As Americans, we pride ourselves on our independence and self-sustainability in not only the economic sector but also in our daily lives. The nuclear family is increasingly the norm, as mom and dad raise their children until they're 18, at which time the kids are thrown out into the world on their own with little to no help from the parents. And when those kids finally are settled down into

2009-09-17T22:15:00.001-07:00

Well, this is my new blog. I'm hoping to somehow improve my writing by writing about topics which aren't too mundane, so I'll try to blog about a variety of things and not just what happened to me during the day. (Well, okay, maybe I will sometimes...)So, I was originally going to write something about race issues or the joys of letter-writing, but I'm not sure where I want to go with my