Music Jam Session

Higurashi No Naku Koroni has a cool opening song.
I want to read Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand.
I NEED TO WRITE MY TERM PAPER!

Music Jam Session
Blood+, Higurashi No Naku Koroni, ROD (TV) opening, Cardcaptor Sakura opening, Samurai Champloo, D.Grayman 4th opening, "Ready Steady Go" - L'arc~en~ciel, "Kasenai Tsumi" from FMA, "Rewrite" Asian Kung-Fu Generation, Home Made Kazoku "Arigatou", "Peace" from Gundam 00, "Tobira No Mukou e" from FMA, "Battle Cry" from Samurai Champloo, "The Sixth Station" - Spirited Away, [Card Captor Sakura 2..?] Card Captor Sakura movie 2 ending Ashita e no Melody, "Mystline" - Nujabes, "The Path of Wind" from My Neighbor Totoro, "Nazo" from Detective Conan, Death Note 2nd opening, "Tatara Women's Work Song" from Princess Mononoke, Kiki's Delivery Service, "Koori no ue tatsu you ni" from Detective Conan, "Viva Rock" - Orange Range, Chobits, "Ponyo on the Cliff", "Pride" - High and Mighty Color (from Gundam), "Passion" - Utada Hikaru, Wild Arms 3, something from Bleach, "Ai no Uta" - Koizora, "Sakura Kiss" from Ouran HS Host Club, "Auruarian Dance" - Nujabes; Lala's Lullaby

Alone

Why can't I work? Today was a lazy day. I woke up late.. really late. I don't think I got out of bed until 2 something. But I was also sick..

This post isn't making much sense.

Why are my extremities always freezing? When I get really cold, I like to hold onto my lamp after it has been on for a while; it's so warm. Speaking of coldness, I noticed that my right hand is almost always significantly colder than my left hand. It's so weird...

I was supposed to go to the library, but I figured since it's so late, I might as well just stay in here. The library's only benefit is the studying environment and clean desks; I'd still have my laptop and the internet to distract me.

I have a 10-page term paper to write. What am I writing about, again?

I feel strangely alone today.

Inexplicable

Why do I always feel so irritated whenever my mom calls me? She calls me all of the time daily, but only for maybe 30 seconds to 2 minutes. I suppose we don't really talk that much, but that's because I always get so irritated that I rush to hang up. Why is that? Well, we do vidchat (via Skype) for longer periods of time if she has her way (30 min to hours).

I suppose I just feel entirely smothered. One of my roommates said she didn't blame me for my (rude) actions. After another incident this morning, she said, "If I were you, I wouldn't even pick up the phone."

2012

I really want to see this movie, but it got me thinking: what's really going to happen on 12/21/2012? What would you do differently if you knew the world would end?

I remember how I freaked out on New Year's Eve when 1999 became 2000. My parents were asleep, yet I had to stay up as I awaited the apocalypse. Obviously, it never came.

Anyway, here's something someone posted about evidence for 2012 as the end of the world:

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When the end times come, how would we know? The end of the world could be tomorrow, or 5 billion years from now when the Sun becomes a Red supergiant. There's no use worrying about it even if the world were to end in 2012, because it's not like there's anything we can do to stop it, is there?

By the way, there's an 8th reason people believe the world would end in 2012. There was a book written a few years ago about a planet called "Niburu" and people take that fictional book as gospel and actually believe this "invisible" planet would come crashing into earth that day. There are "pictures" posted on the internet of this supposed planet, but these pictures have been later determined to be planetary nebulae occurring lightyears away from us. People making these claims about Niburu are fear-mongering, and laughing at those of us who believe their bullshit. (The closest thing to Niburu is dwarf planet Eris, which can only come within 4 billion miles of earth. If it got any closer, well, that would just defy physics!)

The 9th reason is that December 21st will be 2012's winter solstice, and on this same day, the sun will be between earth and the center of the milky way galaxy. Even though this alignment happens once per every single year, people still believe that some cosmic catastrophe will happen as a result. (Some people also believe that we will be in the exact center of the Milky way that day, and that we'd be sucked into the super massive black hole that is thought to exist in the center of our galaxy. However, the solar system is 8 kpc away [30 million lightyears] from the center of the galaxy, and even the most massive black hole in existence isn't strong enough to pull matter 30 million lightyears away into it in a matter of one day. That also defies the laws of physics, because we'd be moving exponential times the speed of light in order for that to happen! Nothing can move faster than the speed of light!)

And lastly, a 10th reason. Every 400,000 years the iron core in the middle of the earth flips upside down (the tetonic plates stay in place, don't worry people!) When this happens, the earth's magnetic poles switch sides. (So the north pole will switch from positive to negative charge, and the south pole will switch from negative to positive). People also think this'll cause us problems for some reason, however, it's not due to happen anytime soon, but who knows? It still probably won't harm us, though.

Before I go, I'd like to add a little something about the solar flare thing. Every 11 years this same thing happens: the sun's solar flares act up. It's a regular pattern and happened last in 2001. We were fine then. The worst reported solar flare bombarded earth in 1859, and the worst it did was interfere with electrical and radio waves, causing power outages for a few hours, and that's it! Worse case scenario, some places on earth might lose electricity for a couple weeks tops. It's not like the sun's going to blow up!

I really wish people would take a deep breath. We have no control over the world ending, and we *probably* don't know when it will end, either."

Dorm Sweet Dorm

After a long and arduous bus ride out in the dark wilderness of urbanity, I am home! (Funny how I catch myself calling the dorms "home" now.)

A Mental Note

I keep losing track of my thoughts. I can't remember names, topics, things that happened only 5 minutes ago. I think I may be on track to get Alzheimer's. Even if I keep journals and blogs, the disease would progress to a point in which I wouldn't even recognize the life described and written in my penmanship as my own. That's so sad. That reminds me of The Notebook actually.. But speaking of forgetting names, I always seem to forget the names of people around me; even people whom I know very well! It's really embarrassing actually... I usually tend to just talk to the person without using specific names in those cases, but I've still been caught plenty of times. It's embarrassing because it's not that the person is so unimportant to me that I can't remember his or her name; I just honestly cannot remember the names sometimes.

But in other news, here's a health tip for you:

When you take medicine, just be safe and take those pills with water. Juices will either increase absorption of the medication 2-3x to toxic levels (grapefruit juice) or they'll lower absorption rates of certain other medications (grapefruit, orange, apple juices). It's best to avoid drinking juice until 2 hours have passed since taking the pills. (Source)

Nightmares

I can remember more nightmares than happy dreams. Last night was just one more notch on the proverbial bedpost of Nightmare-Land.

A coworker called me with his cell phone as he was driving along the Golden Gate Bridge (and instead of seeing my own surroundings, I could only see him and what was happening to him). Someone was in the backseat, as well as 1 or 2 ladies in the back. He told me that he was going to be raped (I presumed by the man in the backseat) and that I should call the cops. I don't know why I hadn't done that earlier, since I could see it was a dangerous situation already. He hung up. So I called the cops and told them, through tears, that my friend was going to be raped soon and was currently at the Golden Gate Bridge. Then I saw the man tell my friend to get out of the car, and promptly pointed a gun at him. The friend tried to diffuse the situation, but it was no use. Soon my vision became one in which everything was filtered out of view except for my friend's blood vessels. (Think of an x-ray for blood vessels.) As each bullet hit him, I could see a hole form, and then the radiating bits (from a limb, I assume) would fall away and disappear. (Translation: a single bullet hit him at the joints of his limbs, which would result in an amputation of sorts.) The man did this enough times to sever all of his limbs, and my normal vision showed that he was in the ocean on a small platform that semi-floated on the water (with maybe a few inches of water above). The ocean became my flooded living room, and the platform was hidden under the piano.

My S.O. says I'm morbid.

A Lost Friendship

It's always sad to lose a friend. At what point do you stop trying to repair it and just let it go adrift? Perhaps you'll meet again, but 'til then, it's over.

I wish it weren't so, but what can I do? When push comes to shove, the "friend" won't give.