FINALS

Finals. Finals. The last breath of a dying semester.

Aha, I kid. More like the last scream.

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Hahaha anyway, my memory is so bad it's hilarious. Just a few moments ago I remembered something super trivial about last summer and how I had prepared my ochem notes from high school in preparation for 3A.. If I went to all of the lectures, studied.. what happened? The last half of that summer is a total blur to me. Where are those notes..

Emotionally Unstable

I'm so unstable it's not even funny anymore. Well actually, someone once told me that "you know it's bad once you can joke about it." I guess that's only for special incidents, like joking about a suicide.

If anything at all pricks or pokes me, I think I'm going to have a serious meltdown. Since when did I get atop this precarious perch? More like I'm walking a tightrope above a sea of enthusiasm and agony.

Sigh..

Big Bang - Stupid Liar

Too much to study. Kill me now.

"I'm so stupid.." for real!! D:

Fade

I feel like the last tendrils of life are losing their hold on me, and I'm fading out into a void.

Well that was bleak. I suck at being eloquent.. Anyway, I was trying to describe the feeling of disconnect that I'm experiencing right now. I have so much to do, and so much that I want to do, yet I haven't been able to address any of these issues yet. I guess I'm too afraid. I keep thinking of the "what if" scenarios in my head.

Keep positive?

Get It Right

This pretty much sums up my life right now. "Get It Right" from Glee.

Wednesday

8 am - bio lecture

9 am - stats hw & section

1 pm - chem lab and prelab

5 pm - lab lecture!!

Thursday

8 am - chem lecture

9:30 am - stats midterm

1 pm - lab training

Friday

8 am - bio lecture

12 pm - meet up and go to Piedmont MS

6 pm - bio midterm

8 pm - Dance Marathon

Saturday

9 am - labor coach training

Note: Email makeup lab GSI to email my GSI the worksheet grade!

Sigh

I'm sooo out of it. Am I depressed?

1. bio prelab?
2. background check
3. look up my teaching schedule
4. stats hw
5. chem prelab
6. chem lab write up
7. stats midterm
8. bio midterm
9. chem midterm
10. labor coach training
11. summer sublet
12. work study!!

I found this interesting website called No Shmeat. It's about eating in a more healthful and environmentally conscious way. Totally cool! Takeaway points: eat .5 to 1 lb of meat a week; eat more vegetables; check where your fish is from. I want to see if I can somehow incorporate this information when I teach! :o

What now?

These words try to escape me but I pull them back in.

What should I do now? Do I stay in this situation, hoping for the best? Hoping that I'll forget the past? That I'll live and let bygones be bygones?

Do I try to rebuild myself from scratch?